A holiday has passed and now you may be feeling sad or alone. Is this behavior normal? That depends. Are you avoiding the public? Do you spend a lot of time sleeping? While I am no doctor, the answer of yes could indicate a sign of something you need to pay attention to that needs to be discussed with a doctor. While I may not be a doctor, it is safe to discern that these behaviors could clearly indicate something like depression. Depression according to the healthguide.org is a feeling of helplessness, hopelessness, and the inability to function every day without relief.
It is important to know if you are depressed and the warning signs.
Things happen in everyday life that may make you sad and possibly throw you off from your normal schedule but it is essential that you continue with your life. I know this because I believe I fell into depression after I was injured in a car accident. I did not encounter any broken bones and I was blessed to walk away from what appears to be a no injury incident.
But what people did not know was I did sustain an injury, a back injury. It is not something that I experienced excruciating pain from but a tightness that is hard to explain. I had to attend therapy for several weeks and was given muscle relaxants.
It wasn’t until I stopped going to therapy and finally replaced my vehicle after a year in a half that I begin to notice some signs that indicated depression.
My warning signs of depression were:
• Sleeping a lot, my back was constantly tight so I stayed in the bed a lot
• Irritability, due to constant discomfort in my back
• Feeling of hopelessness, I did not know when I would get another vehicle
• Feeling of helplessness, my husband and son was taking me to work and picking me up everyday
• Sadness, I did not like the idea of not having my own vehicle
• Consumed with negative thoughts, of my life will not get back to normal. I will always have problems with my back. This is an ongoing situation.
After a year of this and realizing I needed to get back to myself. I knew I wasn’t feeling normal. I had stopped my exercise routines. I didn’t want to be around anyone because of my low mood. I knew I had to do something to change my mood. I had to get it together.
My first step was to purchase a car. The reason I did not replace my vehicle immediately was because it was the second used car I had purchase to help my kids. It wasn’t paid off and the insurance settlement had not come in yet. We needed to wait on the insurance settlement with my injury before moving forward in purchasing another car. We finally got the settlement and purchased another vehicle.
My life is now coming together slowly. I can now drive myself to work after a year. It felt wonderful and freeing. I knew I had to restart my old routines and start some new ones to shake the feeling of hopelessness. I pulled out my self-help cds and put them in the car so I could play them constantly during my drive to and from work.
I felt myself coming back. I also began to read again. I am an addictive reader to self-help and spiritual material. I knew where my thoughts should be and I was determined to change them. I also began to get out more. My husband began to want to go out to eat more to get me out of the house. It began to feel good to be out enjoying dinner and talking with him during times I would usually be home in the bed. I also would ask a friend out for dinner after work occasionally so to break up my routine of going home and getting in the bed and going to sleep.
Slowly I began to feel like living again. I would say affirmations to myself in the mirror every morning to get my day going. I would search Youtube for videos to help me change my thinking and watch them during my lunch hour at work. Over time I could feel myself not only feeling grateful, happy and worthy of my life but I could feel a new strength that I had never felt before. A strength that I knew I could overcome anything. It was and is a great feeling.
Today I no longer sleep as much, except when I take muscle relaxers and I only take them when utterly necessary. I understand that a conscious choice must be made daily to live my life to the fullest and that is my agenda.
My case may not be textbook and I did not get to the point where I felt I need medication, because I am not one to always want to take pills. I knew if I wanted my thought process to change and for my life to get better, I would have to take control of it. So I did.
If you are feeling depressed and not strong enough to notice what is going on, by all means seek help from your doctor. Life was not meant to be simply endured but enjoyed and we must do our parts to ensure our own happiness and well-being.